Tuesday, April 30, 2013
Taking It Back
I happened to check my job evaluations folder to see if there were any in there from before the job evaluations were all put online. Well, as it turns out I had three evaluations for 1998, 1999, and 2000 in there. You all may recall that I get ticked off every year because I get nothing but the "Successful Contributor" or "3" ranking, and I believed that this ranking was all I ever got. Well, I was incorrect in my recollection. As it turns out, for those three years, I got two "Outstanding / 2" and one "Excellent / 1". So, my record isn't completely sucky, I've just been in a rut since 2001. This has made me think that perhaps my problem is simply my attitude. The year 2001 is when my house got flooded and since then I have been a different person. I am much less optimistic than I was before that happened, and in the last twelve years have allowed myself to become very bitter about certain things, especially my finances. I am going to have to force myself to find that optimistic young Astro again and bring him to the fore. My pessimism and anger is evident to my children and I don't want them to be pessimistic and angry.